I have said three times this week “yeah, it’s basically 2016 already.” And then, I realized what I was really saying… and want to say to all of you: HAPPY NEW YEAR! I am done with 2015! See, 2015 was the year in which all the shit ever possible hit the fan, came raining down and then squished itself into my carpet, ever-present and stuck, like glitter, only smelly. And sort of painful. And while I can compare it to the glitter-shit of other folks and say, well it wasn’t all that bad, totally could have been worse, it was my glitter-shit of a year and we all get to feel our feels. It was. That. Bad.
Therefore, I have decided that it is ok to host my own private NYE style ball drop here in quaint Charleston, SC and risk sounding just a little bit like Jessie Pinkman when I say: “Happy New Year Bitches!” Cause it is. It is a new year and one in which I look back at last year and say, wow I learned a lot. And when I learn, I like to share. Cause I’m nice like that.
10 lessons I learned last year:
1. Plans rarely work out the way you think they will, but when you look back, you realize everything was exactly as it needed to be. It’s sometimes ironic. And aggressive in its right-ness. But alas, true.
2. Thyroids are assholes. And they control way more things in your body than you knew. They are important little jerks, so get them checked.
3. People make really big, life altering mistakes and you can still love them. Maybe from a distance. While staying out of the way of their personal hurricane. They are imperfect, but so are you, so give them a teeny bit of slack.
4. But. Personal limits are crucial. You’ll know if someone has crossed yours and it’s fine to just let them go. It’s fine to say “I am better than that. I deserve more. I can make the hard choice.”
5. Families are all beautifully complicated and messed up. And if they look that perfect on Facebook, chances are, they are the most messy at that moment. Just “like” their pic and then privately message to say hi and offer tea.
6. Love blossoms in the most unlikely places and when you are absolutely least expecting it. Just go with it. Need a reason? See #1 up there.
7. Parents are all just doing the best they can and no one actually knows who the fuck is in charge. Like, who ARE these small humans who think I know the answers to things? What? They came from MY uterus? Well, shit.
8. Teachers and OTs are superheroes. They just are. Where would I BE without our team?
9. Faith brings blurred edges into focus. It can also get you through a particularly difficult long-run. God knows you have a sailor-mouth and that it just feels so GOOD to say “fuck” when you still have 5 miles to go– but then pray through each subsequent step. God’s got you.
10. You actually have a deeper well of strength than you ever knew possible. You can do all of these hard things. You will survive, even when it absolutely feels like you will not.
Happy New Year Friends. I now declare it 2016! Here’s to us and new beginnings!